It’s been a long time I felt such hopeless.

‘The best way out is always through’ - quoted from somewhere.

There are two things that can make me happier.

Chocolates & Chinese New Year. LOL.

How fast the time goes by? I can’t believe that my semester almost ends and the final exams are getting closer. *jaw drops*

It’s the 9th week of my semester, it is time to get all assignments done and due, then dedicate the left over time to prepare for finals. After the anticipatory hectic period, it would be my 3-month-holiday. Sounds cool but I’m still not sure how the thing goes and which plan should I implement,yet

Anyway, this week is a little bit special to me. It’s our 7th anniversary week. Hoho. It’s completely a coincident that the day falls on Deepavali 2009 and well…I have to sacrifice my chance to celebrate Deepavali at my neighbour’s house. T_T I’m still on my way preparing the gift to Mr.K. *evil grins*

Last but not least, I just wan to say I love you all - my friends, family, those who have been playing even just kalifeh roles in my life. HAHA. CHEERS!!

*My brain went blank as usual when I just want to blog something*

Well, here’s the ’something’.:P

This cute fella is my neighbour’s dog but my neighbour wasn’t at home most of the time. So he used to stray within our residential area and becomes everyone’s dog, with different names at different houses. LOL.

We called him durian dog. Swt. LIU LIAN GOUUU.

He says cheeseee XD

Time really flies, my one week midterm break almost finish. I sense that I’m going to be really busy after this break [so I take time to slack as much as I could now har har har]. Every semester is the same. Assignments, tests, assignments, final, whee. Isn’t there anything more interesting? Zzzzz.

I think a lot lately, until I couldn’t pay attention while driving (WOW!). Sometimes I just want to thank my parents for whatever they gave me. Somehow I think that I’ve inherited their bests (WOW!). Why not? I believe everyone is. Your parents always give you the best they have. What you have to do is to appreciate it, like what I am doing [or learning to do].

Anyway. Another day just gone. Good night!

So, my sisters are all back to school and dad is operating his business as usual. I still have a week left until my semester 4 to start. Gosh, time really flies. By the way, I just arranged my timetable and got Monday free.

Well, I hope I can do better this sem [with no C]! (Dreaming…)

My sisters were bored at the shop so my dad threw them some modelling clays. It ended up I am the one having so much fun with the clays haha.

Mango Delight

The Garden

Tangerines Surprise

Sexy Purple

Choco Berrie

That’s all.

张玉莲 (Chong Nyuk Lian @ Lenny)
1963 - 2009
Suffered from cancer since end of year 2007
Had medical treatment at Mount Elizabeth Medical Centre, Singapore
Cremation at Kuching Culture Village (Kuching Buddhist Society)
Body ashes placed at Nirvana Memorial Park, Kuching. (富贵山庄)

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Today is my mom’s ‘first seven days’ (头七) so we all went to Nirvana Memorial Park early in the morning. For your information, my dad got my mom Nirvana’s package and we are all satisfied with it. They are really experienced in things and guide us (not everyone know about these stuffs okay). One more thing is that, Nirvana memorial park has really heaven-like screnery which is so different from other chinese grave yard.

Her favourites

Now you see the recent me. Told you I am alright, haha! ARghh grow fatter already.

Till then. Lunch time!!

Hey, how’s everybody doing lately?

It’s glad to see that I still have some readers came across my blog since my blog has been so dead. Well, I’m back to blogging now!

I really thank those who’ve kindly dropped by and left me some comments. I really appreciate’em. Not to forget those who’ve also commented on my Facebook, texted me and those who’ve visited my mom for the last time. I might not reply some messages but don’t worry, I read them, and keep them in the depth of my heart.

Another thing that people concern the most was my younger sisters. They are doing it excellently. I believe everyone had already prepared for the worst and thing didn’t turn out to be a surprise. Two of my youngest sisters know the things well. They took care of my mother too and they knew my mom was really suffering from the illness. Of course, they also know that my mom is relieved now.

It’s been two years. Time really flies. Thank god for giving us two years to get ourselves prepared. Life still goes on. I guess there wouldn’t be much changes as we get used to the routine already since two years ago. However, the mood may take sometime to adjust.

Weather: windy and going to rain soon

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Happiness: 15%

Unhappiness: 20%

Aggresiveness: 30%

Emptiness: 35%

(100%)

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Health: Good

Sleepiness: 80%

Activeness: 20%

Appetite: Fine

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Relationship: Excellent

Family: Fine

Studies: Fine

Finance: Good

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Mother: Bad

Father: Fine

Sisters: Good

Mr.K: Good

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Worry: My mother

Satisfaction: My result

Guilt: Losing patience

Anticipation: A tomorrow

Tonight would be my second night spent in Normah with my mom. Now I know hospital isn’t a fun place to go, and it’s really freezing cold somemore. Cold until I couldn’t fall asleep at night with freezing fingers and feet. You might ask why I didn’t put on more clothes. Gosh, I was wearing two shirts, two jackets and socks. I couldn’t stand the cold anymore and walked down to the emergency entrance. The Mr. Guard talked to me as he thought I was waiting for someone. We then chit-chatted for awhile before I went back to my mom’s unit again.

I’m now wearing thicker jacket and thicker socks. Swt.

Don’t ask me what happened to my mom as I’ve been so lazy to explain. Just pray for her =D

0.9% Sodium Chloride + 5% glucose

The ‘ginger fish porridge’ prepared by my aunt for my mother. Too bad my mom lost her appetite [since quite awhile ago]. It tastes really nice!

I don’t know how many nights my mom has to stay here. I just hope there’s no patient coming in so that I can sleep on the bed next to my mom’s tonight…T_T

Finally had a wonderful gathering with the Engineering gang after more than a semester time. It’s just like a celebration after our final exams lol.

We dined at Yuan Wei steamboat at RH Plaza. I went to watch Transformer 2 with Mr. K after that and yea it was nice! Well it’s not a good thing to go cineplex after having steamboat cuz…you gonna smell like steamboat. :S

Two ‘engine’ guys and two ‘busy’ girls xD

elly and I

All of usss

Elly (with her eyes missing) and I again, with haunted hand at my shoulder :S

More pictures on Facebook.

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My holiday isn’t so much like a ‘holiday’. The stress didn’t reduce any but shifted from my studies to my family issues. Everytime I said I am getting myself prepared, the truth is I never get myself prepared for the worst.

Yes I am this weak. I have too much stuffs to worry about, too much stuffs I have to do, too much responsibilities I am now carrying.

*speechless*

It was such a random decision to me to dine with some high school classmates. Gosh. Miss the time so much.

Nyuk Choo, Beatrice, Molly, Nigel were there with me @ Java Juice. Glad to see that everyone is working hard in pursuing further education. (I always have the same words zz) We really enjoyed ourselves, especially when talking about some funny stuffs happened years back and…trying to recall our teachers’ names! OMG so tough!! LOL.

L-R: Nyuk Choo, Molly, Nigel, Me, Beatrice.

Actually there are still some of them but failed to make it to the dinner. =\ And yes we gonna have another limteh session again. =D More photos in my Facebook.

Last but not least…YEA YEA YEA I’m pregnant for 4 months in the picture above happy now?? -.-"